Responsibility, responsibility, responsibility. Okay, I'm not complaining at all, I'm alright with the pressure and the responsibility. A part of me actually wanted this but rest assured I would not compete against Les Mis but compliment it in a way. We now know what worked and what didn't, so I guess it'll much much more organized. I just want this to work out really well. Ang ayoko lang talaga hindi tayo magkakaayos bago natin gawin 'to. Let's leave 3 bangs before we leave .
I can't hear you. Its hard for me to ignore things, I definitely want to. I don't wanna hurt you in any way, it feels weird that somehow again we have this wall standing between us. But I don't want this wall! I wanna keep talking to you with no hesitation. Its difficult 'coz everyone's been hearing about it, everyone has been complaining and now I believe I have a hand on it. I hope we could just turn the volume down then we'll be able to hear each other again.
The dark side. I was saddened and awakened in the middle of the day, despite the very pleasing twists and turns of life. I never realized how loud I've become, despite trying hard to always look poised and calm during physics class. It still breaks my heart to hear Ms. Ditas warn me because of my misbehavior. I never really noticed 'coz I thought that every noisy moment I had, I tried to bounce back by keeping quiet and trying to solve the problems with slight slants of enthusiasm. Oh, the flashbacks.. I hate it this way. I mean, I never meant to mean any disrespect. Ah! I'm sorry!Ah! Babawi ako promise! I would attentively listen to the discussion tomorrow as well as solve the problems as diligently as I can. Ah!
Is this the end? Finally the las day of white tshirt and maong pants, rifles and salutes, commands and exercises.At the end of the day, have we actually learned something from our CAT experience? I'm not criticizing our CAT at all, i'm just reminiscing of all the things we've done. It only proves that it'll be soon before we leave this place, look at how far we've come. We're officially senior citizens.
God, why do I have so many thoughts tonight. Maybe because I don't wanna study for AP tonight. I'm tired and bummed out. Can I just lay low and relax first? I have more thoughts though.haha.
Environmentalist Blogged:2:41 AM
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Thinking.The truth is maybe I am over thinking things, maybe they are as simple as do-re-mi and I am the only one thinking of it in this manner. This treacherous event has corrupted my decision-making, people seemed to be against me but their not. Even worst, they are in a more complicated situation than I am. This only proves that there are truly good people in this world, people who really care. I was wrong to think negatively about this person, I may have jumped into conclusions and I am sincerely sorry.
Confused. I've been very confused lately, I really don't know my stand on some people. Last weekend, I was sure that something must come to an end, a couple quarters ago I decided not to trust a person and now I've been dependent on her. I dunno how to act right now, I just wanna flow but somehow someone always sees it as contrary to what I wanna do. I hate it this way. haha.
Academic Week. This year the academic week has definitely stepped down a notch (well actually a lot of notches). People can simply lay down on the floors and sleep, plug in their iPods and blast the speakers, or just lay around and do nothing. Things seem to be out of order, the activities are not so active and demanding as before. I miss how much the acad week has become the highlight of our year. Last year na, ngayon pa nagkaganito. Hulimg hugot na wala din palang mapupuntahan. But, I still believe that we learned a lot this time around in terms of classroom infighting, teamwork, setting your priorities,pag-share ng food and pagtuloy. =)
Environmentalist Blogged:7:36 PM
Monday, November 19, 2007
Tying up Loose Ends
Strike Two.Once again my life has become complicated; I am jousting between the idea of facing the gallows once more or igniting a revolution. Should I hide or should I fight? Again this idea of an event done at the end of the year wherein children would walk inwith princess outfits and do something “princessy” just puts so much weight and has actually become a big deal I my life. Maybe I should stop thinking of it or maybe not. Its like after the cold, cold weather and the unending rain showers you have finally felt some sunlight, then again after a couple of days he rain showers returned and by the time it did, it became a storm. I’ve become a sea of waves going in all directions, uncertain of what to do. I wanna stop. I’ve been saying STOP a lot lately. Stop, Stop, Stop, and go away. I wanna go on and see that sunlight once more, but the end of thought of not seeing any, discourages me. I wanna go on and move on. I can’t help thinking that maybe you we’re my rebound, but I don’t want to think that. I don’t want to. I’ve became very complicated, very uncertain. The wind certainly blew me in uncharted waters.
Sofitel.For Reena’s birthday, we went to Sofitel Philippine Plaza for a slumber party and it was certainly a very memorable one. I would not forget the conversations we had, the delicious food we shared, the noise we made together, the friends we discovered, the adventures we embarked on and the little fall of rain I felt. But to Reena thank you so much! We all felt so pampered this weekend, we couldn’t ask for more.. Thanks so much! Happy Birthday! God Bless!
Somebody to Love. I've never thought that these two people would be so close to my heart, I wanna thank them for all. Thank you for always listening, always making me laugh and always trusting me as if I was someone very important. For a short period of time we have been close friends and quite unbelievably I have opened up to you with no limit. To Janel and Thea, thank you for giving me somebody to love..
Environmentalist Blogged:3:03 AM
Monday, November 5, 2007
IT. I know that we could be a little mean sometimes, we get carried away by our emotions.. i just could not believe that there are people in these world that has never understood or heard the word "makisama". i mean we don't want you to conform, we don't want you to drastically change yourself into someone entirely different.. all we want is for you to try.. because we believe we've done our part...be sensitive of the other people around you and realize that you're not the king of the hill.. nor are you the only misunderstood person in the world.. but please realize that other people are around you.. that they too are adjusting to your attitudes and personality.. we didn't start this year and said "oh, yeah lets pick on that guy 'coz he's not like us!".. NO! i'm not trying to protect them and be hypocritical about it.. but really.. can't you see?? we are trying!!and we just had enough.. kasi sarado ka na from the start pa lang.. please recognize that a lot of these people are actually hard workers.. having your own production is a big deal.. not some extra curricular activity that we just decided to do in order to cover up our other responsibilities.. this is a big deal for someone! please be careful of your actions.. if people act, talk and think against you consider that maybe something is wrong about me.. not all people who act evil towards us are actually intrinsically evil..
US. is a topic i hate talking about.. i hate-love talking about.. 'coz magulo..so rather that considering US as something else.. i'd talk about US as a family issue..i remember the times when my birthday would come and go and i would experience... nothing..i maybe exaggerating you know..i dunno.. but most of the time i get the simplest things like pants, a bag, a book.. yadah-yadah.. i know sometimes being the eldest in the bunch is difficult it takes a lot to swallow all the nice presents your younger siblings get on their birthday and christmas.. it takes a lot of sacrifice.. and most of the time false humility.. i hate it when i deny a thing i would like t buy.. first you'd see the price.. and think that could already pay our bills.. i get a lot of those moments.. or when the electric bill, phone bill and all the other bills come at the end of the month.. you feel you're the one to blame.. its true.. its as if you never tried to control your sibling use of the PC and the PS2.. sometime you even get to despise your siblings of how much they can take to ask for a new cellphone or a new pair of havaianas or load or chucks or new PSP games and all that jazz.. i never came to resolve this problem.. may be i shouldn't maybe i should.. i don't know why.. its hard that i can't control myself from caring...ah... an unresolved problem..
help please. Speak up && Stand Out
Environmentalist Blogged:3:24 AM
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