Realizations. Its like March and this is the only time I've realized things about myself. Weird isn't it.
I am dead without music. Lately, I've been very dependent to music when it comes to studying, thinking, inspiring, imagining, daydreaming.writing and almost eveything I do. Music is like my security blanket everytime I commute home, no one else exists and nothing else happens. Its the first thing I run to everytime I feel an emotion or an event just happened. It wakes me up and puts me to sleep. Its my lifeline.
I am a patron of the public transportation system. I've seen a lot of things happen on the road. I met a lot of people, I mean I saw all kinds of people. I've realized some Filipino habits in the jeepney. (a) Whenever you meet someone you know in the jeep you pay for them. (b) Certain people, specifically mothers, buy extra seats in the service so that her children or other family members will feel comfortable. But there are of course negatives like, every time someone new rides in we move forward and eventually the new rider takes the farthest seat. What if the jeepney was moving fast? She will fall, so bad idea. Certain people ignore passing on other people's bayad, so other people extend their efforts to hand their payment.
I am uncertain. During productions, the teachers usually ask me what about this and that.. and I'll go ah, ganito po yan...yet we haven't practiced it yet or its just an idea that popped out of my mind or its an excuse..hahaha...good thing when its time to show what we finished we're ready...
I am weird. Well, obviously we all have our own glitches and stuff..and mine are just absolutely weird. People who know me, know that my HOT-o-Meter is totally broken..hahaha..
I love history. Well yes, I instantly fell in love with the Manila Cathedral and the San Agustin Church when we passed by during the Holy Week. The Manila Cathedral had this huge wooden doors with beautiful carvings in them, why don't you take a flashback? Polo y Servicio anyone? Those doors couldn't have been made by Spanish hands but Filipino blood. The Latin phrase carved in the entrance, don't worry in four years time I could interpret those lines! It has huge metallic gates inside the church separating the sides from the pillars. Bea and I thought that maybe after work or sometime during the war, Filipinos were locked inside and were tortured. Ironic isn't it? Torture and salvation. Their salvation was torture yet torture is salvation. The San Agustin Church I totally fell in love with, it is where Miguel Legazpi's remains are kept and its an actual sarcophagus with Legazpi's features like the one you saw on the Da Vinci Code movie. Cool isn't it? Along with it was his throne,the Philippine and Spanish flags and some writings on the wall. I'm definitely coming back! Did i mention that some of the floorings are made of gravestones of people living way back then. Its was just weird in a good way, reading their names and the inscriptions related to them. Its like I'm having hints on reading El Fili again during summer, for some reason I am pushed to read it. The only regret I have is that I didn't get a single picture of it, I was so sad because we had to go so quickly. :(( But, I'm very determined to go back there during summer, I'm gonna get all the pictures I want on every angle! Its so fun blogging about this. These places just inspire me.
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Monday, March 17, 2008
vintage.haha. We can't keep laughing at someone during practice, she's seemingly this very trying hard and KLSP person, who just keeps us laughing. She texts during practices, I bet she doesn't really have someone to text yet she does it to be astigg. Yes, the astig word comes in again, why do you text during practice, really? Para lang mukhang astigg ka? kasi hndi ka nahuhuli ng teachers.. bah. weird. We were actually wishing na mahuli siya, teach her a lesson. hahaha..Kawawa naman if she gets caught, she may not graduate. hahaha..poor girl!
silencio. I hate how you always try to talk to someone and never get input.. hahaha... feels weird that a certain person rejetcts your enthusiasm... hahaha..well yeah, its not easy to trust anyone in an instant...but c'mon..ahahaha...maybe your just like that..maybe..hopefully you get to realize your old enough that you don't need to keep hanging onto someone to survive..hahaha...that's harsh...
surprise.....not. The subject awardees and special service awardees were announced today. There was no surprise that out valedictorian swept almost all the awards. Disappointing for some of my friends since they've been very passionate in specific subjects. But you can never really blame him, he is really that good to overpower the others. I never really imagined this kind of turn out. So friends, just move on.. ei? Its hard but you know technicalities get in the way.. Just be thankful that we're graduating and that for once in our lives we chose this one thing we're really willing to work hard for.. So just let go and let God. You never know.
Environmentalist Blogged:4:56 AM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
enough to say. I'm feeling quite negatively today. Maybe its because our grad practice has basically wasted our time, we spend a lot of time just hanging around for instructions. Its weird because I just wanna finish my work, I feel bad letting my EIC down. He's always so uh, righteous. Its frustrating coz I wanna write but can't and this guilt is just written on his face. Don't get me wrong, I just wanna help lighten his burden, but then again I can't write if I'm not inspired.
b-weird. This weird feeling is getting very annoying, frustrating and just B-weird. I dunno if its the what or the how. B-weird! I don't wanna say much but damn, its weird. I'm in this very very absurd situation, that I get weirded by it and at the same time laugh at it. I think I'm going nuts. Argh. Hope I just never had it in the first place. Damn.
Environmentalist Blogged:6:38 AM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
it took just one week. Its already March, yet there's no mention of the outcome of our production > Sa Mga Kuko ng Liwanag, but then I am happy and very proud to tell you that it was a success.. I'm even happier to proclaim that we finished the entire play in under a week, beating the Les Mis record of almost a week and a couple of days..Though we dreamed of a more fabulous and ambitious production, i was certainly satisfied. Our creative twists turned out to be very fierce and uh, creative..hahaha.. I couldn't ask for more from my cast and also production staff. Its our last ZDN presentation, and i think we went out with a considerable bang. The play was slick and clean. Yeay! Party! It was also fun communicating through the DS, it was so cool getting to talk to people and remind them of the upcoming scenes..Fun! I wish we used it during Les Mis..hahaha...anyway.Thanks, ZiDeeEn...Salamat for making my last producrtion a memorable one. Thanks to the impeccable lights, the music, the wonderful cast and the staff...sa lahat ng malalaswang scenes, sa lahat g flashback at monologue, sa lahat ng panagininip at eyeliner ni tonton..thanks!
Environmentalist Blogged:4:16 AM
Friday, February 22, 2008
t'was said. All men were born good. Though life's waves and winds try to turn us about, man's instinct is still in the good. But then the waves get stronger and the winds blow faster, people seem to loose their way. Though guided by other people, they still stray along and find the fun in these winds. They tend to lose themselves and push away what matters most. I believed in the good of all men. I believed in redemption and forgiveness. All men are truly good, yet why do we stray away from the path? Maybe breaking the rules is in fact fun, maybe thinking of ourselves and only ourselves feel better and more fulfilling. If we stray away, don't we have that choice to come back into the light? Don't we have a choice to be good again? Were we stuck in a moment, when we were hurt and left out? Is that reason enough to stop caring? Is that reason enough to through it all away? Yes, maybe. I've stopped hoping that all men be good. The beginning of the end, most men are good. This will stand unless proven otherwise, as time comes maybe some men are good, few men were good, one man was good and no man is good. The good just left the door, and I'm not hoping it'll come back.
Cheers. Congratulations to my goddess of justice, Wish! for winning 6th in a nationwide features writing competition over at South Cotabato! Cheers, beybe! hahaha.
Quite. Inspired lately, a bit excited to write another literary thingamajig and our last column, got a topic in mind but no body yet. Hope I find time to start them.
Under Pressure. Our SMKL play is coming up next week, we're almost done with the acting but I'm worried about the lights, props and sounds. Guys, please akala ko ba we're all in this together? haha. Dudes, please start working..probably on tuesday we'll start with the technicals na..please don't wait for us to direct you guys.. start na kayo, please? thanks, dudes.
Environmentalist Blogged:2:27 PM
Monday, February 11, 2008
Start here. Today was our first day back after the retreat, its amazing how much time is left before we leave high school. People are planning on where they're gonna stay, or the money they're going to spend, appliances to be brought and other stuff. I bet no one would ever forget our retreat, full o laughs and cries; a sense of family and belonging filled the air. Before we left Father Ding warned us that we may change but the world is untouched, unaffected. Its only our first day back and we have already proven this, quizzes flood from every subject, the CSB exam which we do not know the purpose of, and the ever constant apathy of some. Yes, we have climbed the mountains to "transfigure" ourselves, yet some people's lives are left untouched.
Wondering was she really here? Is she standing in my room?
Wondering could you stay my love? Will you wake up by my side? No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands? Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands? Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my , roses in my hands?
Environmentalist Blogged:4:01 AM
Friday, February 1, 2008
Sa Tuktok ng Alon! Kami ay Aahon!
SENIORS Astig Kayo!! Wohoo!!
Trippin',Stumblin', Flippin', Fumbling... Its quite a sigh of relief winning the cheering competition which we all worked hard for.. each sequin placed with precision, each earpiece glued and taped with much care..haha..ang drama eh! I'm proud coz this time we felt this satisfaction, fulfillment after we finished the cheer...i congratulate the people behind our win..sobrang tiyaga at sakripisyo ang bumuo sa panalong ito! I'm also very happy to report that we are finally named the Over-All Champs! Weee! After winning championship after championship..we certainly have made it a landslide triumph! Congratz everyone! Proud to be a Senior! We'll surely miss all these fun in our college lfe so savor it while it lasts!!
Clumsy. I've been quite clumsy lately, I've been topsy turvy, over the top, on my toes and very hyper active.. despite all the stress and all the adrenaline running through everyone's veins...someone just stood out..and took the weight off even just for a while..so thank you for your sense of humor and the waves you caused...weee!!
Free. Still undecided about a very sensitive topic, for the first time in a long time I've been uncertain..I don't know where I stand nor where you stand.. I don't know what you're thinking..Right now, I'm really trying to look at both sides of the fence..hope that the next few days would help me decide...
Survivor : Seton Notes Edition. I've never come to realize how much I love the Seton Notes! Yesterday was such a blast with our SN Correspondents <> and the rest of the Senior gang, ofcourse with Sir Peter...We had a mojos - C2 - chicken belated happy birthday bash at the office..where we had to eat out of paper plates.. i mean literally we could have used the sophies "shoulderplates" but we found a pack of paper plates ,,we didn't have cups to drink from but we had a pack of straws which we used to drink a 1-Liter c2 Apple Bottle..we would usually drink one at a time but often times we drank at the same time..talk about cavemen eh? With no knives around, Sir Peter cut his cake with a straw but then eventually we found spoons! Yeay! It was like we discovered fire..hahaha..it was soooo fun! We had our pictures taken with Pat!! <> and Dan and Gil..and the entire SN gang! It was soo fun..worth remembering...I love you, dudes!! Wohhoo! Hey, Gil! Vic! and Pat! where are the pics?? Post them at photobucket! Thanks!
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